Hello again my dear readers, so last week I did not write anything, I thought I would because I went for a trip, saw the beach and thought I might be inspired but it was totally the opposite my mind went just blank, which I think it was good, had nothing to think about, like my future, my new dreams, work, friendships, love, nothing, just enjoying.

But, I am back and my mind is starting to run wild again, and it is telling me that I need to make a decision about my life and it kind of worries me, a fear to face my dreams and hopes, and the direction I want to take my life to.

I have also been thinking about friendships and ships, I have been away for so long that I come to realize that even though I still have some connection with a few friends, I lost connection with others and not sure how to find my way back.

On ships you always have company, there is no place were you can say there is no people, there is always someone around, and if you don’t make a connection is just because you do not want to.

I do make some efforts to reach out to people, but I guess they are all so used that I am not around that they wait for me to reach out, and it worries me.

Since I have been home I think only 2 people have actually showed concerned for me about not having a job at the moment, about how I feel to be back at home, and if I am going back.

I don’t blame any of them, I have just been away for so long that connections are lost, I have missed special moments, key moments in my friends life but then I ask myself “Does anyone wonder how I feel?”

Maybe is just part of growing up, everyone has their own problems now, their own families, their own support group, and me, well I am adjusting to this life on land, which not sure if it will be temporary or definitive, I need to make up my mind, face my fears and see what I truly want.

Well, one more time for whoever read me thank you! Wishing you all the best and remember STAY HEALTHY! : )