Freedom

Fabiana wanted to regain her freedom, she wanted to love herself the way she used too.

Fabiana was in the middle of the forest, she had been running for about 20 minutes until she suddenly stopped and fell to the ground and started crying. She was completely broken, shattered heart, she could not handle her loneliness anymore, her life was not the same, she felt incomplete, she had lost the game, she was dead in life, she was lost in the land of broken dreams.

There she was at 23 years old with her white nightgown full of blood and a knife on her hand, what was going on? In what moment did she go wrong? Fabiana cried and cried while she was watching the moon and then she turned her eyes toward her hands, dropped the knife and realized her hands were stained with blood, she gave a desperate cry and she knew there was no going back, what was done was done and she would have to face the consequences.

She did not want things to end like that, she just wanted to be loved and nothing else. She knew that when she got involved with him her life would turn upside down, that is why she ran away from him so many times, but he always managed to get close to her, for him it was just a game, and she did not have the slightest chance of winning.

Fabiana reached her limit, she could no longer be a shadow and live hidden from everyone, she wanted to be the one, to be in sight, so she made her decision, she was going to confront him. She waited for him in her apartment like every Thursday, the only difference was that this was the day she would speak her mind, she would change the rules of the game, she wanted to be in control, and feel valued. Everything started like something casual but after a year it was tough not to get mixed up with emotions, and she did not want to let go.

She was tired of lying, of being the other woman, she could not handle it anymore, she wanted everything, and she was going to take it, she was not going to be the only one suffering.

Robert arrived and things were going as usual until Fabiana said she could not handle it anymore, and that she wanted to be the only one, she was tired of sharing. He took a step back and like before he said that she knew that was not possible, that he would never leave his wife, and that she already knew that she was only a distraction from his real-life problems. Fabiana could not believe what she was hearing, so she just said, “after everything, and all these time I am still just your toy”, Robert just answered “and a very expensive one” and he started laughing, not taking the conversation seriously, but she only heard his laugh, his stupid laugh, and then she just lost it, and something took over her body, and her actions, she blacked out,  and then just like that she was in the middle of the forest crying with blood on her hands.

In the distance you could hear the ambulance and the police. When the police finally found Fabiana she was laughing like a mad woman, the cops handcuffed her, and she was just saying “I’m free”.