Today is not a good day for me, well emotionally speaking, otherwise I am great and grateful, I seriously can’t complain about my life, but I feel on a personal level I still need to do more, accomplish more.

I am 36 years old and I am not ashamed of my age I have lived a good life, with it’s ups and downs and everything but life (like most of us at the moment) is forcing me to face my fears: Am I capable of doing something else besides ships that makes me happy? Will I be happy with my salary outside ships?

I know I am on a temporary break because of Covid but, what will happen next? Live the moment, live the present, sometimes is tough, at least for me, at least today.

I think in a way I have been handling these times we are living in quite good, but today is a tough day.

I do have plans, I do have dreams, but I guess in a way I have been “busy” to pursue them.

So, here I am today facing my fear of making my dreams come true because of fear of failure, because it was easier the other way, because I am been forced out of my comfort zone. I really must make an effort.

On one of my morning walks, I saw a plant growing through the asphalt, even though there was a strong thick layer above it, the plant manage to break through, a small “not so strong” plant, it found it’s way to flourish and show itself it can still grow.

Happy days everyone, face your fears and overcome them. I heard once instead of thinking “What is the worst it could happen?” why not think “What is the best that could happen?”.